Psalm 139:17 – How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the
sum of them!
Psalm 139 is
David’s declaration that God knows everything about him. He begins by
acknowledging that God has searched him and known him. He continues on to say,
"God you know when I sit down and when I get up". In verse 4 he says "I can’t
even say anything that he doesn’t know because He knows every word in my mouth".
(My paraphrase) In short, David was declaring that he could trust in his God.
Yesterday I had
need to remind myself that I can trust God. My wife and I had one of those
unexpected curve balls of life thrown our way. You know the kind: the ones that
catch you so unprepared you don’t know what to do. After nearly four years of
struggling with her health, my wife had a knee replacement in October. The second
surgery was scheduled for June 3, less than a month away. It has been like the light at the end of the tunnel. Yesterday the doctor’s
nurse called to say he was leaving the area and that we would have to find
another surgeon.
We were
upset, to say the least. I was angry, frustrated,
and truthfully, a little afraid. What if we can’t find another surgeon willing
to see her? How long will she have to wait for another surgery? These are the
things that go through a person’s mind at a time like this.
On the way
home from work I tried to “encourage myself in the Lord” like David did. It
didn’t seem to be working. I knew God was with me but I felt like my faith was
a million miles away. Thankfully last night was church night. And do you know
what Pastor preached about? Worshipping God! That’s right, worshipping God.
Now I know
we have all heard it before. “If we will worship God in the midst of a trial,
he will come through for us.” I have preached it numerous times. But last night
I had to practice it. I think you know what happened. The more I began to
worship, the smaller my problem seemed and the bigger my God seemed. You see it
really isn’t a big problem compared to the God that we serve.
It could be
a big problem if my trust was in the surgeon. It would be a big problem if my
trust was in my own ability to solve it. But our trust has been in God from the
very beginning. He knew this was going to happen and he allowed it to happen. He
could have stopped it. But he chose to let it happen. He must know something I
don’t know.
You see, in
those times when we don’t know what to do, we have to trust God’s heart. If I
truly believe he loves me and is looking out for my good (I know He is) I can
trust him with perfect peace. It may be that we needed a different doctor. It
may be that God knew which nurses needed to be in the hospital on a certain day
for Gail to get the best care. It may simply be that God knew we needed a
lesson in trust. I don’t know but I don’t have to know. He knows and that is
enough for me.
God Bless,
Sullivan
Jones
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